grazin like a fat cow

holy shit. my metabolic rate is going jeepers. im grazin like every 2 hours. i just took a dump and lost .5% body fat because metabolically my body is going crazy. then about 30 minutes later i took a piss and i dropped another .5% body fat... im up to about 186lbs and less than 15% body fat. can you believe just last year i was like 165lbs and maybe 20+% body fat. and when i was with my ex i was like 200lbs and maybe 25% body fat which was like 6 months before i was 165lbs. that means ive put on almost 25lbs of muscle in the last year. whats fucked up is that working out is one of the few activities i actually enjoy these days. its almost therapeutic.

and im strangely attracted to this brunette at the gym. ive been seeing her on and off the last couple of weeks but every night the last few nights. totally not my ideal type though cause shes shorter and got like stubbier but toned legs. but shes got such a cute face. and i love how she always puts her hair up in a bun-like so it totally accentuates the face. and her face is so proportioned. and is it me or do we totally check each other out from a distance. damn, she is hot in this uncharacteristic me sorta way.